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my secret hideout.

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

I think i've abandoned this place long enough to make this my secret hideout.

Lately, thoughts that have been running through my mind just made me not sure if he's the one for me. of course i've been holding back all of it. he's all in all, great. so much that i call him my dream guy all the time. but he certainly has a way to always make me feel like our equation is impossible to be balanced. he's none like any other ordinary boyfriend. he's usually not there, not unless i need him, that or i go to him. and i only believe that circumstances will deteriorate instead of the other way. No matter how hard i try, i know i can never turn the table around.

Comparing to past relationships, I've always had the upperhand. Not that I'm asking to be above, but now that I've found myself a really good chap, i'm never terribly good; only good enough perhaps.

Maybe I should just go. This soreness kicks in far too often, I don't even know where to hide anymore.

-heal your soul, you piece me up 02:04 :)