I recall blogging this not too long ago...
"many a times, despite our desires and heartfelt concerns, we tend to make the wrong decision. like how you always think your life is in a total mess. but when you walk out of the circle and look back, your life wasn't so bad afterall. if you keep thinking you can predict the future (to a certain extent, you can..try.), you will keep falling back into this senseless ritual, this hole that you will never find what you're looking for. It's either you don't look back, or you don't walk away at all. i'ld be in a total dilemma too. For my 1st r/s, i didn't look back, though there were times i was upset, and lonely. At least i'm out of it, and happy with my life now.."
Never thought it'll be applicable for me.
I don't know when I started to get greedy.
I can't seem to find contentment in what I own now.
I can't control myself.
And I didn't used to be so.
I never knew decision making could be so tedious.
And I know I shouldn't try to predict my future.
But I can't help thinking.
Just leave me be.
I'm gona quieten down for a while..
I believe in karma.
And I believe, it'll come back to me...
As a matter of time...